People Are Amazing !

Hi Readers,

Not sure how long this post will be as I have been in hospital again this week for a shoulder operation and the physical act of typing is quite painful, so I'll just see how I go.

More about that later.

Now, about the topic of this post.

Over the past week I have been involved in two events that have just reinforced my faith in people. I know that we can all have experiences where people piss us off a bit, and I have also experienced that in the past week, but overall, my week has been nothing but brilliant experiences with people.

From 1978-1981 I attended Boarding School at Assumption College in Kilmore. The mates I made there have been people that I have stayed in touch with over the years, even more over the past 10-15 years as we enter the later stages of our lives.

We have had a few reunions since we parted ways in 1981, but it has been in the past few years in particular that we have started to value these catch ups a lot more. Earlier this year a couple of the boys asked me if I could get another reunion organised as it has been 45 years since we were all together. As I was retired I definitely had the time on my hands to do this, and in just a few weeks a time and venue was organised.

Given that many of these friends now lived across Australia and most still had various work commitments, it was great to see around 30 managed to pop in for a few hours last Saturday at a pub in Melbourne.

It's one thing to stay in touch via phone calls, texts and social media, but to have that physical connection once again really hit home again. Just that very personal connection brought back so many memories. 

I tried to do the right thing and be the first one there since I was the organiser, and one by one the attendees started to wander in.

I must admit that there was a tiny bit of nervousness as I was wondering how many would come, or would anyone come at all. This all evaporated the moment that the first person rocked up, and over the next few hours there was a steady stream of old friends.

In what reinforced how close we all were, there was no nervous introductions or awkwardness. Everyone just rocked up, used old nicknames and just carried on with each other as if we had been doing this for years. We did have various friendship groups back in the day, but this was all set aside as everyone just embraced each other as if we were all just part of the same big friendship group. I must admit that there was a moment or two when someone asked me "Who is that over there?", and once the name was dropped I'd get "Yes, of course it is!!

We managed to get a group shot early in the afternoon, unfortunately we missed including a few others who turned up later. As expected most of us are either balder, shorter or rounder but none of that mattered as we all probably still saw each other as the 18 year olds who went their separate ways so long ago.

So much to catch up on in so many discussions, it really felt like speed dating to some extent (Not that I've experienced that anyway!!)

If one could think back to 1981 and predict what each person would do with their lives they would have been very surprised. Many of the group have tried a number of jobs, lived in a number of places and endured a variety of hardships. But through it all, there has been a constant feeling of support from these people. When we have lost old classmates, it has been so good to see a group of us turn up to pay our last respects without even needing to coordinate it. People just turn up when they are needed.

I know this first hand as I was blown away when a number of these people turned up to Jen's funeral 4 years ago. I didn't even get to catch up with them on the day, but then again, just knowing they were there meant so much. These people just know how to look out for each other, even after 45 years.

Perhaps what meant so much last Saturday was the efforts that people made to be there on the day when it could have been so easy to say "Oh, it's too hard". This discussion was held with a few on the day and they freely admitted that they contemplated not coming as it required a bit of organising, but they were so glad that they did. And a few who were hoping to be there put in late apologies and just couldn't get there for various reasons, and I could tell they were gutted at missing out. 

So, as a way of trying to maintain this connection, especially as we have started to lose a few, we decided to set aside an annual weekend from now on that many have already committed to.

Perhaps one negative from the day ( and I use that term loosely) was that just about everyone wanted to have a beer with each person. Needless to say I was a bit wobbly early into the evening and how I got back to my hotel safely is a miracle!!!

Perhaps the thing that stood out for me is that we all parted ways 45 years ago at the age of 18, and here we all were half a lifetime later and catching up on all that we had done in that time. Rather than sharing intricate details of jobs and careers, most of the discussions were just about general things, the footy, retiring, injuries, family and so on. Everyone was more interested in the person rather than what the person had done.

And this is why I have called this post what I have. These friends are amazing people, because after spending so long apart we were able to get back together and celebrate what brought us together in the first place. They are truly amazing people.

So after a rather sleepy trip back to Bendigo on Sunday I was still under the pump as I had to get things prepared at home as I was going into hospital the next day.

As I knew that my body would be out of action I needed to be sure that the bins were done, lawns mowed, floors mopped, benches wiped down etc. All the sorts of jobs that were going to be harder to do with just one arm.

Monday morning came around quicker than expected and I also had to be conscious of sticking to my fasting and drinking hours. So just to be sure, I just started this on Sunday night. Rest assured that by Monday morning I was already hungry and thirsty as I dragged myself off to the hospital.

Now Readers, I am quite familiar with this hospital after what I've had done over the past 4 years, so I knew what to expect. However, I am continually blown away by the standard of care from ALL staff at this hospital. This extends from the volunteer who walked me up to reception, to the lady who brought me a coffee later that night to the surgical staff who operated on me. Every single person who I encountered was totally professional, caring and respectful. I honestly can not heap enough praise on these people, especially as I was already nervous about going in again and was still feeling conscious about how many operations I'd been having. I'd rather not have them, but then the alternative is trying to put up with constant pain.

I was sort of hoping that I'd only be in a sling for a week, plus I was booked to work a few days next week. How wrong was I!!

After the operation my surgeon said that once inside they found a few other things that needed fixing, and that it was a bit of a mess. Among these was a detached bicep tendon!! No wonder I'd been in pain for so long!! Anyway, all fixed now but I'm in a sling for 6 weeks and no driving for 6 weeks. I suppose that's one way to save on fuel!!

One of my pet hates is being a burden on others, so I hate needing to ask anyone to drop me off or pick me up from the hospital. So this time I kept it quiet and managed to get there under my own steam and actually rode the local buses to the hospital. This was quite an adventure as I'd only used a bus in Bendigo once before, so trying to understand the timetables was a challenge for me! As for leaving the hospital, well it might be easier to rob Fort Knox!!! They are dynamite in making sure that you are being picked up by an approved person, so I was lucky that one of our sons was visiting for a few days. I did ask a few weeks ago if I could just get an Uber to take me home...The look I was given made me shrink!!!

From the moment I was admitted and the pre-op things were being done I was given just the greatest care by everyone I encountered. At times I could sense that they saw I was a bit nervous and the way that they relax their patients is a credit to them.

At every check in I was required to give my details and a few times I was asked if my wife was picking me up the next day. When I explained why this wasn't the case the way they responded was just beautiful. Not pity, but just genuine understanding.

The same applied when I was offered pain relief. I tried not to sound like a pussy and keep requesting it, but they made me understand that it was foolish to try and put up with something that they could alleviate, and that bit was what they were there for.

I mentioned to a few staff that it wasn't just the care that was amazing, it was the manner in which it was given. They could have easily just have done it robotically and achieved the same results, but every person to a tee went about their work in the most generous and caring manner. It definitely made a stressful few days more liveable.

I don't look forward to having these surgeries done, but knowing how I am going to be treated makes it so much easier to put up with. I wonder how I'd be treated if I chose to be a difficult patient, moaning and complaining and feeling sorry for myself? Knowing these people, I'm sure they'd just go about their work in the same manner such is their quality.

Well Readers, I know this is a very self indulgent post as I'm banging on about how people have been treating me over the past week, but I just can't leave it unsaid how much I appreciate the people who I have been around lately. On one day they were all close friends, and for another two days they were all pretty much total strangers, yet I experienced the best of these people. 

I hope that I can really make myself more aware of the people around me and to always try and see the good in them rather than any little things that might annoy me. God knows I must pee people off with what I do, so after the valuable lessons of the past week I must try to be to others how others have been to me lately.

I hope that you get to see the best in others too!

Now my arm has totally given out from typing in this hunched position!!

Until my next post,

Cheers 😁

 Being a Grey Nomad...

Hi Readers,

A bit of a change for this post, just something different for a change.

Last week I decided to head north to Qld as one of our sons and his family have come back from Dubai for a few weeks as it is the end of the school year and they have a few weeks off. 

Coincidentally there is a bit of a war going on over there as we speak, so I much prefer having them safely here for the time being.

As I needed to keep myself occupied in the car from time to time I recorded a few short clips on my Go-Pro (Is that illegal???)

So, rather than reading my waffle, you can hear it instead! One disadvantage of the Go-Pro however is that it doesn't have a zoom function, so there are times when I'm trying to show you some great scenery, but all you get is the long distance view. Sorry about that!!

Now I'm also not sure about the quality of the clips as I had trouble uploading and converting them to files that this site accepts.

I hope they are in order, but as I've started to go down this path a bit more, hopefully I'll get better at recording things.

Well Readers, or Listeners I should say, make what you want of that.

I did say that I left at 11:00 am on Tuesday morning and was planning on sleeping in the van at a truckstop somewhere along the freeway. 

However, I got to Sydney and was feeling good, so decided to push on for a few hours and perhaps pull up stumps at Goulburn. It was about 10:00pm when I hit Goulburn and I was still feeling fresh, so decided to push on a bit further. A few hours later I was in Albury, and as it was only another 3 hours to get home I just decided to get it over and done with.

This was good along the freeway, but for the last 2 hours I was on single lane country roads, and a very thick fog had come down. This made it hard and slowed me down, but I persevered and eventually got home to Bendigo at 5:30 am on Weds morning. That last 40 mins was hard though.

After putting the van away I had two choices.

1. Go to Bed.

2. Stay up.

I took option number 2 and for the rest of the day just kept busy and didn't sit down because I knew I'd nod off immediately. Let's just say it was a slow day and I had very little trouble getting to sleep on Weds night!!!

And it wasn't just Weds that saw me being tired, it really sucked the life out of me for the past two days. Not sure if I'll drive all the way through again, it's pretty hard work.

So I now have a few appointments in the coming week as a lead up to a shoulder op I'm having, but before that I have a long awaited Boarding School Reunion to attend that I'd organised. It has been 45 years since we all left Assumption College in Kilmore, but so many of us have stayed in touch, particularly since we have lost three of our group in recent years. Next weekend will be just great and I can't wait to see such good friends again.

I'll be heading north again in the coming weeks before our son and the family move back to Dubai, so hopefully I'll get my filming skills up to scratch.

Until my next post,

Cheers 😁

 Be You !!

Hi Readers, 

Over the past few weeks I have attended funerals for two blokes who were my age, and who I grew up with. What really struck me at last week's funeral was that this person had lots of plans to do things with his wife in the next year or so until he was suddenly cut down by an aggressive illness that took him way too soon. Sadly their plans are not to be.

For my other friend who passed away recently, also to an aggressive cancer, he too had lots of plans for his immediate future with his wife, plans that also will not be.

A few days before he died, he sent me a lengthy letter that I will treasure, and in it he just said that if I was wondering whether I should do some of the things I was thinking about, then I should just go and do them, as we just never know when these opportunities will be taken from us.

Needless to say there has been a fair bit of reflection recently, and part of this has involved thinking about this blog and the posts that I write. I get feedback from readers that is much appreciated, but the only the thing that tends to puzzle me is when people question me about how open I am at times, sometimes raising their eyebrows as if to say "Why do you do this?"

Well, I often ask myself the same question.

At first I was very hesitant to openly express vulnerability, but now it doesn't bother me at all. And what has prompted this post came about when I was browsing through my blog stats recently where it shows which posts have been read each day.

There were quite a few for some reason that day, maybe a new reader, and although I often recall the headings, I often forget the content.

One in particular stood out for some reason, so I clicked on it to see what I wrote that day, and it could not have been more coincidental considering how I have been feeling after these two recent funerals.

It was titled "I've Had Better Weeks" and was written a few days after my sister died in 2022 and just a day or two after Jen suddenly ended up in ICU and was in a critical condition.

Click this link for a quick recap and you'll see what I mean.

https://bkerrins63.blogspot.com/2022/03/a-rough-few-weeks.html

This was the first time that I started to write more openly without worrying about what others were thinking about me. It talks about what I had been reading and who I had been listening to that gave me the courage to write with more freedom and not worry about what others would think about it. I wasn't writing to stir people up, I was just sharing the thoughts that I would otherwise keep to myself. The writing was giving me an avenue to express myself when I had no-one else to talk to as I was living in isolation so as to restrict any chances of infections being transmitted to the hospital.

At a time this week where I was questioning as to whether I should cut back the writing and just shut up, reading this post again has given me new incentive to keep pursuing what I really enjoy, and what helps me in so many ways.

And more coincidence, last week I met a colleague for lunch as he is on leave. I actually really dislike referring to him as a colleague, he is just a really good friend, and we caught up as friends rather than ex work colleagues.

He mentioned my writing and how he liked that I was prepared to be open and honest, just the support that I was needing and something that has prompted this post too, giving me the motivation to really get off my arse and get back into doing the thing that keeps me sane!!

So after a lengthy introduction, I can finally get to the point of this post.

Be You.

I'm sure you'll all agree that we can tend to portray ourselves differently at times according to the situations we are in or to who we are with. Or is that just me?

I found that was what I was doing with my writing. For the first few years I was just writing fluffy staff, or just talking about things that I had done. I was rarely letting the real me become evident or exposed in what I wrote. The book that I'm currently reading is definitely helping to address that, "The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F$%K!!"

Boy has that helped me to not worry about what others think!!

So as today is just such a crappy day, and I have no motivation to go outside I may as well bang on here with more of my fluff!

I was in the study recently giving it a tidy up and throwing things out, and I came across a set of farewell notes that I received from the kids at the school I finished at.

One note in particular really grabbed my attention, and also prompted this post.

When I was a student at secondary school I was made to feel like the village idiot with my maths skills, or lack of to be more accurate! The way I was made to feel never left me, and when I became a teacher I vowed to try and never let a student feel the same way about their learning. If I have, then I am so sorry!! 

That is why I really dedicated myself to trying to be the best at teaching maths that I could be, and along the way I grew to love it again. If I made any kids feel the same then that would be great. My enthusiasm for the teaching and learning of maths was what really kept me in the game for 38 years, and I'm somewhat disappointed to see the way it is being taught now, but that is not for me to question. When I do CRT days I follow what is prescribed without question, but it still doesn't sit with me. That's just the way it is.

But this approach was something that defined me, and displayed the real me.

I'm not saying that I know maths, but I feel that I can at least make it fun to do.

Now back to the note that I found in the study.

Some people might get offended by something like this, but I couldn't have cared less. I've heard the saying "You're only young once, but you can be immature all of the time", and I'm sure many colleagues over the years will probably say this could apply to me, but having fun was what I always tried to do. If that was who I was, then that was who I was.

There were times that I tried to be super serious like so many others, but I just couldn't hack it, so if "being a kid" was what worked then so be it. It wasn't faked, it was just how I rolled. I'm sure the kids at times wished that I'd act more like a grown up from time to time!!

Probably the best thing about this note is that it helps me to understand how I always had pretty good relationships with the classes that I taught. It wasn't a circus, (contrary to popular opinion!!) I could be firm when needed but in my final years in particular I found that I had the greatest success and enjoyment with this approach and that the kids were. more engaged as a result and easy to teach.

Being You is not a set template that we never deviate from. Well, that's what I've grown to think.

Jen and the boys would often tell me that I needed to just try and be calmer, as I'd often be on the move, always doing things and just not sitting and relaxing. It would be a running joke about how many times I'd get up and do things when watching a movie for example, I always seemed to get up and get something, or do something else while watching the movie at the same time.

Over the past 4 years now, I really think that has changed as I now don't mind just going and sitting on the swinging chair out on the porch, or playing music and just sitting or laying down and listening to it. Even better with a cold drink in my hand especially if I've just come off an exercise session (some things just don't change!)

I even walk barefoot on the grass and feel it between my toes!!

And how's this one.

I even burn incense in the house and out on the porch!!! This came about after walking into a shop in Ballarat last year and smelling it and realising how calming it was. I have boxes and boxes of the stuff, diffuser sticks in bottles and a diffuser going all the time in the living room. I even explore different scents and in my own mind am becoming my own expert in choosing which ones work best for me.

I do love a good linen shirt for comfort, but just don't think that I'll gravitate to a kaftan.

Yet!!!

I did mention earlier that I sometimes can't sit still long enough. Lately I've noticed if I sit still for not very long on the couch I more often than not nod off, so I'm sort of trying to avoid the couch during the day! Maybe that's also the legacy of getting up so early every morning. 

Part of 'being me' is daily exercise. I've always done it, it makes me feel good and I can't see it changing. Perhaps that's also why I have so many injuries and ailments. As I type here I have my hand in a splint that I have been told to wear for god only knows how long. As regulars know, I recently had a hand op. While the recovery is slow, I can accept that.

Last week while having a post op check done, I mentioned some problems I was experiencing with my thumb. The surgeon said that this was mainly due to the advancing arthritis that I have. He did say that it could possibly be sort of fixed with another op that was quite detailed. No promise of fixing it, and it also came with the news that I'd lose the function to grip with my thumb as significant bone would be cut out. So when faced with the option of a permanent sore hand or a non functioning one, the choice was fairly simple.

I also had to choose between getting the required op on my other hand, or the one on my shoulder. As I didn't want to be faced with two very sore hands at the same time I opted for the shoulder, so I have that to look forward to in a few weeks.

Hopefully once I get these done that will be it for surgeries. Touch wood.

This is me, not sick, just falling apart. Or should I say being stitched back together?

Part of being me is definitely being able to laugh at myself and the situations I end up being in.

But Readers, maybe loving exercise has also been beneficial too.

Just yesterday I was in a business here in Bendigo and the young man who was looking after me just happened to be a past student who I hadn't actually taught as I wasn't in a classroom situation then, but he remembered me very well.

As he was taking my details for a potential purchase I was making, he saw the splint on my hand and noticed my slight limp. He politely asked if these were the result of football injuries, to which I replied "Sort of", as football had contributed to them.

He then asked, "Who are you playing for?"

Do you reckon that floored me!! He was under the impression that I was still playing competitive football!!

I said to him, "Tom, do you have any idea how old I am?", and then told him that I am nearly 63 years old. He just sat there wide eyed and said "B%$#&^%T". He knew I was 'older', but not to that extent, so maybe the exercise is helping slightly!!  He also recalled that when he knew me at school that I would joke around a bit with him and his siblings, maybe that's why he thought I was younger. Or just immature still!!

Well Readers, not much more to add, well actually, I could bang on for ages but you'd need a defibrillator to wake you up again. I am pretty excited about the next few weeks 

(exclude the shoulder op) as I recently made bookings for trips to Torquay to visit one son and then Qld to visit another as he and his family come back from Dubai for a few weeks break. Rather than having not much to look forward to, I now have bookings to commit to and have some definite structure in my life for the next period of time. So as soon as this foul weather clears I'm off and really looking forward to it, and exploring some new places along the way.

Until my next post,

Cheers 😁

 Home Is Where The Heart Is...

Hi Readers,

Well today has been a great day, but also a not so great day all wrapped up in one. And each part could not have happened without the other, sad to say.

You see, just under two weeks ago a person who I grew up with in my hometown passed away rather quickly after being diagnosed with a serious illness. We had spent quite a bit of time mucking around together in our childhood years, and pretty much had little to do with each other after I moved away, save for the year when I last played football for the local club. On the rare occasions when we would cross paths he was always just so friendly and welcoming, that's just the sort of bloke he was. As is his family.

Today was his funeral and it was held on the local football ground as it was clearly going to be a big show and there are no indoor facilities big enough there to cater for the anticipated crowd. How ironic that the local ground is named in his father's honour due to the legacy he left when he passed many years ago.

So today the sun didn't really come up. If it did, we didn't see it until very late in the afternoon when I was coming home. We were shrouded in thick fog all morning and it was very cold to say the least. No rain, so that was a blessing. 

As I was parking my car I started to wonder "Will I remember everyone? Or anyone?

My worries were put to rest as soon as I parked my car, as I hear someone say "Hey Bernard". It was the parents of one of my childhood friends and they were struggling a bit getting out of their car and across some mud. An outstretched hand was all they needed and a quick chat as we walked towards the ground filled us in with the main things we had been up to over recent years. Three people sharing 30 years in just 2-3 minutes.

Little did I know how many times this scenario would repeat itself over the next few hours.

I ran into quite a number of people who I hadn't really seen in 30 years or more, and each time it was just a quick summary of what each had been up to in that time. Nothing rushed at all, and anything that was shared was all that needed to be shared.

This was a different funeral setting, nothing like I had attended before, but for this person it was just perfect. And also perfect for the large community of mourners who came to pay their respects. There were seats for those who needed them, while the majority just stood in a large semi circle facing the podium and video truck that was transmitting the images. It was casual, but also so very organised at the same time.

As I entered the ground, casually chatting with an old acquaintance, I caught sight of an old boarding school mate who I last saw at a reunion 8 years ago. We were good friends at boarding school, but not what I'd call close. Today that was totally different. 

A warm embrace and once again we found ourselves seemingly continuing on from our last discussions all those years ago. Clearly, the bonds we formed so long ago have remained strong. Rather than chat about superficial things, we were pretty much straight in to talking about how we really were, our families, our health and hopes for the future. Also about our upcoming reunion that he was really looking forward to.

He very respectfully asked a few questions about Jen's passing and how I was coping, showing genuine respect and concern as I was responding. At one point he asked if I had thought about looking into perhaps searching for another partner, as many others have done, but this was the first time where I have felt comfortable with my response as he was able to put me at rest with his well measured and heart felt advice. From being friends, but not close all those years ago, today was just like cream on a cake.

As I alluded to in the opening paragraph, it was a great day, but also a not so great day. Everything great happened because a friend had died and had brought us all together again.

I'd rather that our friend hadn't passed in order for this to happen.

There were a number of other catch ups from long lost friends and acquaintances and each time it was just like we had seen each other yesterday instead of more than 30 years ago.

Everyone had a different role in my life, whether that be going to school together, boarding school, our families being friends, playing sport together or working together, which I did with the person whose funeral it was.

And this brings me to the focus of this post.

Home is where the heart is.

I have lived in a number of towns and cities since I left home to go to boarding school, and I have never really considered a place as my "home", even if I had lived there for a number of years. I lived in Ballarat for about 16 years, and now Bendigo for 26 years, but to me they just aren't home, just places I've lived. Our sons might think differently as this is primarily where they were raised. Even when I have travelled interstate, or even overseas, while I am there I keep thinking that I don't want to go back to Bendigo. But where do I want to go???? I just don't know...  I just don't feel where my "home" is.

As I was looking around the crowd at the funeral and at the cemetery, I recognised so many faces and spoke with so many people who all had a special place in my upbringing. And while walking the 15 minutes or so to the cemetery, and back again to my car, I was able to take in the sights, sounds and memories of the environment around me and I realised that this was what really helped me to develop into who I am. Just looking at the mist on the nearby hill that overlooks the township took me back to all those years playing outside on our bikes and just finding our own fun. At one point I was walking alongside a creek where we'd dare each other to try and swim in it, in particular through some tunnels that were clearly dangerous. What were we thinking back then? 

Then I saw the tree that we would always climb and jump off into the channel, the best childhood memories. Just that 30 mins or so of walking along a short road engendered just so many memories, ones that don't get stirred when I occasionally drive through the town.

But after having the memory pot stirred on this walk, and also while listening to the eulogies for our departed friend, I recalled so many of these involved him also.

Sadly it took his passing for me to experience this again.

But perhaps the greatest part of the day involved the catching up with three absolutely special friends who I have always been close to, and today was the first time we had been in the same place at the same time since I don't know when. We didn't gather as a foursome today, but at one point there were three of us together, and we all caught up with each other anyway. One of them was involved in the ceremony today as it was her brother who had passed, so she was flat out catching up with everybody, but it was still just so good to see the three of them. When Jen was really sick in Melbourne and in hospital, I was living in nearby accommodation. Visitors to the accommodation were not permitted due to the risks of infections being transmitted, so I could only meet them outside on the footpath, even though Jen was in the hospital nearby. No surprise that it was these three who made special trips to come and see me and walk the streets of North Melbourne with me, giving their total support. I'll never forget that, it made the worst time in my life just that little bit more bearable. I can trust these three with anything.

And who would have thought that when I was sitting in class with them, or playing tennis or footy with them nearly 50 years ago that I'd be writing this about them today. Just last year we had been saying that we needed to get together, what a shame it has finally happened under the circumstances of today.

Yep. Home is where the heart is.

So after my experiences today I think that I know where "home" is if anyone asks me. 

My hometown. 

I won't go back and live there, not because I don't want to, I just don't think that it will happen. I know where my final resting place will be and that's just up the road from where I live, there is no other option on that for sure. It might not be "home", but it's the only place I want to be placed, with Jen. My remains might end up in White Hills, but my heart will always have a special place for my hometown, just as Jen considered Port Fairy to be her "home".

And while on the subject of cemeteries, while I was standing and watching the burial, I was in a direct line and only 10m or so from our brother's grave and our parent's grave. I'm pretty sure that they felt this was their "home", and I felt content that they were resting peacefully there.

Today wasn't just a funeral for one person and his family. I could really sense the impact of his death on the whole community, such was his standing and how much the people in this community value each other.

I for one consider myself extremely fortunate to have spent just a portion of my life there, and it reinforces that saying, that "Home is where the heart is".

Until my next post,

Cheers ♥️

Deja Vu?

 Deja Vu?

Hi Readers, 

Another gap between posts, not for want of trying, I’ve just had a mental block for the past few weeks and haven’t been able to get off my arse and write. Until this morning.

I have had a bit on over the past few weeks with work and recovery, and it has been the recovery that has held me back the most. As you saw in my last post, I recently had some hand surgery. Well, the first week post op I was thinking “How good is this, bring on the op to the other hand!” That enthusiasm has VERY quickly evaporated as my hand is taking a bit longer to recover than anticipated and continues to be so stiff and sore, meaning I have been avoiding using it where possible, and typing is one of the things that affects it a lot. I’m not complaining for a second, that’s just how it is.

This is the hand two weeks after surgery.

And this is the hand just now, two weeks later.

It does look a bit messy after a few ops on it to correct some tendon problems in each finger, and the carpal tunnel has proven to be more painful than I was expecting. So you can probably understand why I’m now not looking forward to the next one in a few weeks, I find out in a week or so.

Anyway, the focus of this post.

While there is a fair bit of Déjà vu in regards to getting my body chopped, it was not until a few hours ago that I started to think “When have I done this before?”

It was pretty early in the morning and I had to drop my car off at a mechanic in town for a service. Rather than walk the 45 minutes home again, and in the cold and rain, I decided that I’d spend the morning in town and just stroll around the place and actually stop and look at things that I only usually see fleetingly from the car.

                                     STOP PRESS!!!!!

Hi Readers,

you might be wondering why I did a "Stop Press"

This is because since finishing that last paragraph it has been nearly 3 weeks since I have added to this post. No real reason, I just got more involved with other things and although each night I put on my 'Tomorrow List' to finish this post, it has only been until tonight that I have finally pulled my finger out and done it!!! Talk about procrastinating!!

Let me continue from where I left off...

As I was casually walking the the centre of Bendigo on a cold and bleak morning, spending time to take in the sights, sounds and smells, I experienced this overwhelming feeling of "When have I felt like this before?". It just felt that I was reliving a previous experience.

And then it came to me.

We have been so fortunate to have travelled extensively over the past 15 years throughout Europe and Canada. Most of this has usually been done in the northern hemisphere cooler months, although we have experienced warm weather as well. 

And this is what it felt like- just like it has felt like when strolling the streets of Berlin, London, Geneva, Helsinki and Budapest just to name a few. Feeling the cold air against your cheeks, hearing the sounds of traffic and experiencing the different aromas drifting out of different businesses. This never happens in Bendigo. Or does it??

I'd never really experienced this in Bendigo as I'm usually in my car and just zipping around, never really taking the time to soak up the atmosphere. There was probably this thought in my mind that I can only feel these things if I'm overseas rather than in my home town, and it was only when I forced myself to look at some of the older buildings around me that I felt like I was somewhere in Europe again. Maybe this could be how a European visitor to Bendigo might feel when strolling through our streets.

Am I as clear as mud on this??

I'll have to admit here that it was lucky that I was in a small section of our CBD that had most shopfronts occupied, as there are just so may in Bendigo that are empty, a terrible look for our city !

Since that day I have now become more attentive to the environment around me and letting my senses take in whatever they ca.n As a result I am more in tune with my surroundings and appreciating it so much more, and not being in a rush to get from point A to point B. Unless I need to get there more quickly of course!

Just a few hours ago I was walking through the yard in my cycling shorts and a singlet out to the garage to do a cycling session on the roller frame I have set up in there. The rain was tumbling down so I was trying to dodge it as swiftly as I could and get to the shed, keeping in mind that I still can't run to save myself. As I was doing this, feeling the wind blowing and the rain coming in sideways, I was taken back to a similar situation when I felt the same way when Jen and I had to do a mad dash to escape a thunderous downpour in Prague. It was just so weird that this brief experience reminded me of a similar situation so long ago. It didn't evoke memories of a similar situation last month or last year, just the one in Prague 11 years ago.

Why is that??

Deja Vu!!

A lighter deja vu moment occurred on Tuesday when I was called in to work for a day at my old school. I still just can't say no!!

As regular readers would know, I've bought and sold a few caravans in the past two years, trying to find the one that suits me. A colleague very dry faced turned to me and says "So what caravan have you bought this week? Any caravan deja vu?"

I could only laugh as I have created this caravan situation, and even I have to laugh at myself with what I've been doing.

So what other deja vu moments have been happening, since I have lately become more attuned to them for some reason? How about you?? Maybe nothing at all lately, but tomorrow could be entirely different!! I'd love to hear your responses, just hit the comments tab at the bottom of this post to leave an anonymous reply.

For me, these situations are not necessarily 'repeats' of things that have happened recently. Strangely, something might happen to me today, and I straight away get taken back to a similar experience from many years ago.

For instance, a good friend passed away a few weeks ago from a shocking illness that took his life less than 6 months from diagnosis. We went to boarding school 45 years ago but have stayed in touch, even more so over the past 10 years. Another mate from the same friendship group rang me and said he'd come through Bendigo and pick me up and we could attend his memorial service together in Geelong. Dan, the mate who picked me up was soon at my place and the last time we had seen each other was at Jen's funeral 4 years ago, and only briefly on that day. As soon as he walked in the door here was no awkwardness from not seeing each other for so long. It was just like we hadn't seen each other for only a few days, we just seemed to pick up from where we last saw each other. It couldn't have been more perfect, and the 7 hours we spent in the car that day was filled with so much reminiscing , laughs, bullshitting and consoling. And the same occurred when we caught up with another 9 of our boarding school mates who also travelled from far and wide to pay our condolences to Chrisso.

It was mentioned quite a few times when talking with these great mates how we all felt that we were just continuing on with our previous conversations that occurred maybe one year ago, 10 years ago or even 45 years ago.

Deja vu!

I have been well and truly blessed to have met these blokes first of all as a 15 year old boarding school student, and then to have maintained an ever increasing closeness with them especially as we sail into the later years of our lives. 

Coincidentally, a few months ago a few mates from our group asked if I could try and get a 45th Year Reunion off the ground, and it has been a task that I've thoroughly embraced and it will only be a few weeks until we all gather together in Melbourne, and early indications are that it will be a good turnout. Already there are confirmations from WA, Qld, NSW and throughout Victoria. Hopefully another from the NT might be there too!!

Plenty of deja vu moments to be had for sure!!

Not sure if this next one is deja vu or just routine for me, you be the judge.

I went to see my surgeon yesterday for a post-op check up on my hand since my recent op. All was going to plan and he was happy with the recovery. Although it is still so panful, he assured me that this was expected and that the recovery would be lengthy.

And then it came to what would be done next- the other hand, or the shoulder?

He left it up to me, so I opted for the one that gives me the most grief, that being the shoulder. I just didn't want to be fluffing about with both hands really stiff and sore, so that was another reason for the shoulder. As I've already had jobs done on both shoulders in recent years I must have appeared a bit flippant when he spoke about the recovery. Until he stopped and very seriously and matter of factly said "This is going to require quite some work and you need to expect a long recovery" My only problem though is I have finally got my caravan modified and ready to go, but it looks like I won't be physically able to take it away for some time after the shoulder op. I better make the most of the next few weeks!!!

Dej a vu.  Again!

Anyway, as much as I don't want to get it done, I do want to get it done as I'm just totally over being in pain all the time. Just sitting typing this post has aggravated it so I think I'll start to finish up. Then the hand will get done later on and hopefully, hopefully, no more deja vu moments with my limbs!!!

Readers, what I've tried to explain in this post is how our life sometimes flashes before our eyes again at the most random of times. We experience a situation today and for some unknown reason it triggers an oh so similar memory from long ago that may never have come back to us until today. These moments could be super significant and life changing, or as simple as walking across your backyard in the rain wearing a singlet and lycra shorts (not a good look!!!)

I hope that you can make the time (not find the time!) to try and think about the deja vu moments that you might experience, and try to identify why they may have come back to you.

I'm still trying to work that one out, but in the meantime I;; just appreciate the opportunity to bask in the great memories of times gone by.

Until my next post (that won't take 3 weeks to write!)

Cheers 😁